The Book of Me – Prompt 1: Who am I?

The Book of Me, Written by You is a series of weekly writing prompts to embark on a journal of self discovery, which was created by Julie Goucher at Angler’s Rest. I just found out about it today when I read a post about it by Vikki over at The View Outside blog. I went right away and signed up. Today is the first day of it! 🙂

I’ve had a lot of time on my hands for contemplation, so this sounds right up my alley. I don’t know that I’ll share everything I write, but I’ll share at least some of it. Today’s prompt was : “Who am I?” and it was supposed to be asked 20 times. Here’s my list. It led to a more detailed version of this, but I’m weighing sharing it or not.

  1. I am Sabrina.
  2. I am a strong woman in a line of strong women.
  3. I am a daughter, mother, wife, sister, aunt, granddaughter, and sister-in-law.
  4. I am a caregiver to my husband.
  5. I am a nurse.
  6. I am a crochet fanatic.
  7. I am a creative crafty person.
  8. I am a cook, who loves to dabble with recipes.
  9. I am a budding herbalist and aromatherapist.
  10. I am a reader, reading endlessly at times.
  11. I am a poet and writer.
  12. I am a lover of bluegrass and country music.
  13. I am a barefoot country girl.
  14. I am a homesteader.
  15. I am a romantic and passionate being.
  16. I am a dreamer, who’s temporarily lost the way to dream.
  17. I am a believer with mustard seed size faith right now, but it’s there.
  18. I am finding my voice after having lost it for years.
  19. I am an unfinished being.
  20. I am myself.

Someone, Not Me

Not that girl
It’s not me
I’m the good girl
The one
Others want me to be
Became
An adaptive illusion
Moving me out of place
Until nothing was left
No me
There was no space
To hold my ground
Have some control
As none could be found
A rebirth
A new me
This other girl
A girl
I don’t really
Wish to be
But a girl
Trying to be
Not better
Yet not dust
Escaping pain
Creating more
Unable to be
Not free
To really be me

Cloudy Skies

Cloudy Skies

Non-techy Tech Rant

I love having internet and feeling connected. It’s useful. However, I do not get the language. It’s something that bypasses my brain like directions(I’m a GPS girl for good reason). I’ve tried reading definitions of some of the terms, but I still can’t decipher it…megabytes, kilobytes, broadband, and plenty of others. I like things to just work.

My internet as of late has decided to work at the creepy slow pace reminiscent of dial up. This has happened ever since my old wireless internet device malfunctioned and it was replaced with one of those “sticks”. It’s 3G, but it’s what I had before, though my before device allowed me to have several tabs up at once.

Now I’m relegated to usually one internet page at a time, keeping my fingers crossed, and hoping it will cooperate in coming up. I’ve done the tech support thing multiple times and never had any good answers or resolution to the problem. My last ditch effort is to try to purchase, on my own, the same old device I had before and see if it works any better. If not, it’s been recommended I upgrade to 4G.

Living in a rural area my options are minimal. Even the company that would be our local land line phone provider says we live 1,500 feet too far for the very reasonable costing internet service they provide. One of the major cell phone companies, who I have my cell phone through, offers a lovely wireless internet plan. Again, not in our area, which I don’t get since it’s wireless. Are there monopolies that are supposed to be non-existent barring companies from selling service in certain areas?

There are one or two satellite internet providers that provide service in our area, but I really don’t have a spare couple of hundred dollars lying around for equipment cost. If I upgrade I would be paying much more for a plan comparable to my current internet plan and be tied into another contract I don’t want. Arrrggghhh!

At this point I’d probably just take a lap top to a restaurant for a couple of hours a day for some good high speed wireless, but I can’t get out of the house often due to caregiving. Instead, I’ve been spending more time on the computer trying to accomplish the things that used to take me waaaay less time to do. Sorry for ranting, not having one of those suffer-in-silence days.

Off I go to finish catching up on reading blog posts and then write some for the day. Happy writing… 🙂