I try not to reblog too often, but I read such an incredible post about FEAR over at Kristen Lamb’s Blog just a few moments ago. It was so great I thought I’d share it. I think many times in life, fear holds us back, not just in writing, but in fully living life. There are some thoughts in the post about thinking about fear differently. One thing I really liked was the acronym for F.E.A.R., which she says is False Evidence Appearing Real. Truth is one of the major things that drive my writing as I’m tired of it being lost in the false illusions of life, which merely hide it. I need to hang onto the things I know are real and quit letting the other things weigh me down. Life is far too short for negativity. 🙂

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Fear is always a part of life. We all feel it to one degree or another. Trying to live a life without fear is dangerous. Why? Because there are only two types of people who never feel fear—sociopaths and drugged people. Sociopaths lack empathy and normal human emotions. They don’t feel fear, but they don’t really feel love, joy, happiness or anything else. This lack of normal human emotion is often what gets them into trouble.

Another way to not feel fear is to drug it out of existence.

Of course, the fear is still there, it’s just numbed from the conscious mind. This is often why those who choose drugs, alcohol or medication frequently need more and more and more to keep themselves numbed. People like this aren’t sociopaths, so they do feel fear.

The problem is that, fear left unaddressed feeds and grows and gets bigger. This is…

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New Beginnings

*This is a short bit of a story I wrote for a word prompt on Inspiration Monday over at the Be Kind Rewrite blog. *

Carolyn opened the door, walked in, and looked around. The walls were bare, but she loved the peaceful pastel blue walls and the natural light shining in through the sheer lace curtains. The curtains had been the only thing she had put in the house yet.

The small rental house was her house. It was an idea taking quite a bit to get used to and still made her a little nervous. She had never lived on her own, which was scary enough. The part that made her the most nervous was the possibility her ex-husband Tom may find out where she lived.

She pushed the thought aside. She knew where thinking like that would wind up. It’s probably why the house was still empty, even though she had owned it for a month already. Yes, finances were an issue, but the fear was the bigger issue holding her back.

She turned around and strode back out to the truck. She grabbed the white wooden rocking chair out of the truck bed and carried it in. Carefully she placed it in the corner and sat down. The chair was one of the only pieces of furniture she had been able to get out of storage without Tom noticing.

The chair held many memories. It was the chair her mother had fixed up for her as a baby shower present years ago. It was the chair she had rocked her daughter in so many times, when she was younger. Her daughter was now a young woman herself. The chair she had always hung onto despite Tom’s urgings to get rid of it.

Now, she was sitting in her chair in her house. It was a strange feeling, but one she could get used to. She and Tom had been married so many years, but she remembered how often Tom would tell her, “This house is my damn house”. She had been wishing for peace for so long, but it never came. She closed her eyes, rocked back, and thought, “This is how it starts”.

Happy 1st Blogiversary!!!

Create (Photo taken by Selena Bullock)I am so excited, it’s been a year since I first started blogging, so it is the blogiversary of CreativityorCrazy. I wasn’t sure blogiversary was even a word, but it can be found in the Urban Dictionary. Blogs come and blogs go, but somehow I’ve managed to continue blogging and have no desire to stop anytime soon. I fell short of posting twice a week, but I can say I managed to post something every month of 2012.

In the beginning I really knew next to nothing about blogging, but have really learned my way around. I now love blogging and the sense of community that comes from blogging. I enjoy reading comments left by readers of this blog(thank you), reading the blog posts of others, and getting to know some of my fellow bloggers a little better. Makes the world not seem such a lonely place.

This blog has turned into something a bit different, not just freelance writing, but a wider variety of writing as I’m trying to find my way. If you’ve been following this blog for a bit, you know I do have a fondness for memoir and personal essays. Writing from real life comes easier to me than fiction, though I will try it on occasion. There will be poetry from time to time as well as I enjoy writing poetry.

The main thing I can say I’ve learned from blogging and writing is do not let the opinions of others deter you from following your heart. My writing highlights of last year were having a poem published and being able to say I wrote a book(which may never go further than being written, but it’s written). Well, going to go do some writing, so happy blogging! 🙂

Your thoughts are always welcome… 🙂

Blog Planning

One of the things I hope to accomplish this year, is to be more organized overall, but especially in regards to my blogging. If you know me real well…no laughing allowed. I know it seems a life goal of mine I’ve been at a while, but hope springs eternal. 🙂 It doesn’t mean there will be a dramatic surge in my blogging though. I still think twice a week is a good goal for my often chaotic life.

Now, I will never be one of those bloggers so organized that I have blog posts scheduled in advance to be sent out. No offense against doing that, it’s just not me. I tend to be one of those who just wings it and wants to blog when the inspiration strikes. In an effort to keep up with my little random notes about blog posts and maybe to blog with a little more regularity, I thought a blog planner might be just what I need.

I thought of creating my own blog planning sheet, but decided to go searching the internet. The blog planners I found ranged from a simple weekly page to creating a 60 page blog planning book you could have comb bound at the local office store. I decided to go with one of the simple ones. If you are looking for a way to be a little more of an organized blogger here are some links to several free printables for blog planning I found :

Oh The Lovely Things

Homeschool Creations

Living Locurto(This is the one I decided to use. It was simple enough for my needs and pretty!)

Infarrantly Creative

Mamma Jenn

Confessions of a Homeschooler(This one is so beautiful, but I do love the ornate as shown by some of my favorite writing notebooks. 🙂 )

Last but not least, Detail-Oriented Diva has a post about an incredible blog planner she made, which is a little different and has a neat ribbon velcro closure too.

Thoughts or ideas? Any good organizing tips for blogging you’d like to share?… 🙂

Waiting

The Passage of Time

The Passage of Time (Photo credit: ToniVC)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Life at a standstill
No going forward
No going back
Eternity of the in between
Not disillusioned with false hope of past
Not wishing life to fade quite so fast
Each day goes on
Passing without moving
Stillness in the in between
Thoughts have been lost
Dreams no longer dreamed
Words find no meaning
Surrendered to the deep
Indeterminable depth of the in between
Waiting is endless
Time loses meaning
Here in the in between

(A melancholy poem but at least a poem…I’m slowly beginning to write again…this aptly describes where I am.)

Still Here…

Hi, I’m still here and have plans to continue blogging. So much for 2013 goals. 😦 Life has just hit a wee bit of a bump in the proverbial road. Trying to sort some things out. My husband’s health had not been doing well last week, then he fell Friday before this past one. He had a compression fracture in his spine. It would’ve been quite enough to handle, but things started to get worse.

We went back to the ER the next day, Saturday, and he was admitted to the hospital. It was a combination of multiple things including dehydration, pneumonia, exacerbation of COPD, and heart issues as well. Everything since the fall has happened so fast. Thankfully he was discharged late Tuesday.

There is truly no place like home, but now there are new issues we are having to figure out. He’s on oxygen for the first time ever. Home health is sending a nurse and physical therapy out a couple of times a week for a while. Hopefully things will improve, but for now things are a little crazy around here.

I’ve been so tired, I haven’t done much writing. I did write in my journal last night and it felt sooo good. Needed to unload a bit. Life will start settling into it’s own rhythm soon and I’ll start writing more. For now, would so love to have just maybe  a couple of hours undisturbed sleep.

Fresh Start to 2013

Image of a modern fountain pen writing in curs...

Image of a modern fountain pen writing in cursive script. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Here’s hoping 2013 will be a better year. I’m recharged and planning to leave the past in the past. I’m ready to make a fresh start in 2013. This will mean some changes, so please be patient with me.

I will be playing around with my blog a little(already changed the theme today). Just trying some new things out. Will take some time till I get things comfortable and sorted out. It’s like rearranging furniture.

I’m trying to motivate myself as well, so I guess creating some goals are the way to go. I’ve given this some thought. I did try to make sure I have realistic goals, so I don’t set myself up for failure. A big part of being realistic is knowing I have a bit of a chaotic life most of the time. Without further adieu, here are the goals…

Writing Goals for 2013 :
(will be doing more writing than this, but it’s a start)
1. Blog twice a week(continued from 2012-failed last year 😦 )

2. Read 2 books per month

3. Complete the 100k in 100 days Challenge(read more about over at Quiller’s Place or 100k in 100 days facebook group)

4. Find and join a local writer’s group

5. Finish poetry book

6. Work on revamping blog a bit

Feel free to share your thoughts and maybe some of your goals for 2013… 🙂

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